Bella Swan has found her lobster.
Once upon a time, Kristen Stewart experienced the kind of fame that can mess with a person.
While Twilight put her on the map, it also took away her privacy, her peace of mind and her happiness.
"’I went through so much stress and periods of strife," Stewart explains in the September issue of British Elle.
"I would have panic attacks…I literally always had a stomach ache. And I was a control freak and I couldn’t anticipate what was going to happen in a given situation, so I’d be like, ‘Maybe I’m going to get sick’… It’s kind of remarkable."
That has to be an absolute nightmare for someone whose relationship (with then-boyfriend Robert Pattinson) was under a microscope, scrutinized by millions of teenagers the world over.
After a 2012 affair with her Snow White and The Huntsman director nearly destroyed her career, Stewart has come out on the other side.
And yes, she’s doing just fine.
"I just grew out of it, but that’s not to say I don’t get worried," she said.
The Cafe Society star also has some big news to share on the romance front, something she’s never done in the past.
"I think also right now I’m just really in love with my girlfriend [Alicia Cargile].
"We’ve broken up a couple of times and gotten back together, and this time I was like, ‘Finally, I can feel again.’"
Cargile, a film producer, and Stewart started dating in 2015. After they split, Stewart dated singer Soko for about a minute, but the two broke up before Stewart headed to the Cannes Film Festival in May.
"When I was dating a guy I was hiding everything that I did because everything personal felt like it was immediately trivialised, so I didn’t like it," Stewart said
"We were turned into these characters and placed into this ridiculous comic book, and I was like, ‘That’s mine. You’re making my relationship something that it’s not.’ I didn’t like that. But then it changed when I started dating a girl.
"I was like, ‘Actually, to hide this provides the implication that I’m not down with it or I’m ashamed of it,’ so I had to alter how I approached being in public.
"It opened my life up and I’m so much happier."
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